The drive home.

Light starts in a dark place
The story of a car chase
And I’ve become the criminal
And fleeing from this scene
And being caught in a bad dream
The truth becomes the unthinkable, yeah

I’m on the brink of disaster
Starin’ down the consequences
To brake hard would be better 
Tonight I’ll do what it takes to feel
I'm going there only faster
Jump the gun and throw it into gear
But the fact of the matter
Out of control asleep at the wheel
Asleep at the wheel
Out of control asleep at the wheel

Night falls with no grace
I said I can do anything
But I can do anything wrong
And with burning speed
The rear view says it's catching up to me
But I’m already gone

I’m on the brink of disaster
Starin’ down the consequences
To brake hard would be better 
Tonight I’ll do what it takes to feel
I'm going there only faster
Jump the gun and throw it into gear
But the fact of the matter
Out of control asleep at the wheel
Asleep at the wheel

Tearin’ it down to open up the highway
We’re looking for our exit
No pretending
Spinning out and around
With a sobering smash
I'm staring at our car crash
Oh, the chase is ending

I’m on the brink of disaster
Starin’ down the consequences
To brake hard would be better 
Tonight I’ll do what it takes to feel
I'm going there only faster
Jump the gun and throw it into gear
But the fact of the matter
The end is coming

I’m on the brink of disaster
Starin’ down the consequences
To brake hard would be better 
Out of control asleep at the wheel
Asleep at the wheel
Asleep at the wheel
Asleep at the wheel
Out of control asleep at the wheel

Now I am not usually one for lyrics and writing about them, But today im in such a state that my own words are not good enough to define how I feel. I heard this song while I was driving home. Its called Brink of Disaster by Mae. All I know is this life is becoming very quickly more and more complicated. The more I try to control something the less control I end up with. Why is it that I cant be satisfied, I have to jump off cliffs that I dont see the bottom of. I feel like I am missing something. Wait, I am, My friend. The one I could talk about anything to and be understood. But I wasnt satisfied with that? Now we are taking a serious reevaluation of ourselves and what we want. Not only from each other but from ourselves. I feel half empty, things will never be the same. I know we will get beyond this. But into what thats the real question. I have no idea what this all means, and I am scared to death to find out. 

So I am on the Brink of Disaster, Staring down the Consequences.... Out of control asleep at the wheel.